Nothing's gonna hold me down oh oh I've got to keep on moving!

It's been awhile since I've blogged. To be quite honest there are a multitude of reasons why. The first is because I'm sensitive. I've been strong for many years, but when people call me names or say mean things I revert back to that little girl being bullied on the playground or maybe more like that sad teenager being bullied by her mother. I've been receiving blog comments from Fenton. They are always negative, sometimes to close to true and even insightful in their meanness. They make me want to give up and so I did for a bit.

I started feeling like maybe it was wrong to put myself out here so publicly. Since I've pretty much only received negative feedback from this random stranger it seemed pointless to continue. Obviously reading my blog leads people to certain assumptions. By now you've probably realized I've had too many sexual partners. Maybe you think I'm reckless, stupid, slutty or just crazy, but maybe a small percentage of you will see who I really am inside and why I'm writing this. Yes I'm sometimes childish, delusional, pathetic, self glorifying, you name it really, but I'm self aware. Something most people can't claim to be. I know who I am. I know my mistakes. I'm not afraid to share them because I know they were made with the best of intentions.

So I'm back and if you don't like it you can go right ahead and fuck yourself. Why waste your time reading and commenting if you hate me so much?